Recently, a friend commented that rest had been good for me, I suppose coz I was more chatty again. I am so focused on the things in front of me that if at work, my life (and my blog) will be all about it! So here I am finally out of it and then I get a phonecall today from an ex-colleague M…
M: Can we come visit you now?
Me: What? Why? Who are ‘we’? Aren’t you still at work (of course I’d forgotten work ends at 6pm.)
M: Eh, me and KK coz he’s going to Rail Mall to meet someone.
Me: How about I meet you guys at Rail Mall?
M: Ok, we didn’t really mean to visit you literally.
Me: *relief* (coz I’m a slob and need a day’s notice to clean up!)
So I’m back writing an entry about work! Horrors. (Joking.)
Because I live in a no-time zone, I don’t feel the distance or time go by. It’s as if they are present with me all the time. KK asked if I had met up with Yeeevon recently. Yep, we had dinner at a Jap restaurant at Rail Mall that had spoons for lights, where she (thank-u, thank-u, thank-u) gave me a belated birthday treat. Lookee…
So today we went to “EAT” noodles. M had $5 and I had $6 and we were laughing about it. (We used to laugh all the time about how much money was in our wallets. :) It was a joke and nobody thought we were “poor thing” enough to treat us except tender-hearted KK (thank-u, thank-u, thank-u). To pay him back, we laughed at him when he did something unintentionally funny (to which, we got retribution later in the night when we sat at the wrong bus-stop and 2 buses whizzed by despite our comic frantic flagging).
I wish I had taken shots of KK and M. Instead, I had taken shots of flowers en route to Rail Mall to meet them…
Although I am full of nonsense, these aren’t nonsensical shots! I realised while walking there that… I like the ex-colleagues. I like who they are. I like our friendship, our conversations, even our quarrels with heartfelt apologies. I like that we still keep in touch 2mths out. I like that it’s really not that awkward meeting up. I thought that even though we’re not “stuck-at-the-hip” friends, we can talk honestly about many things with little judgment. These are people I trust and will stand by, who look outside themselves often.
And so, this entry is for Yeeevon, Michelle and Kayne (and also Kenneth, who thank-u, thank-u, thank-u treated Kayne and me to ‘Harry’s’ for my leaving and our common birthday.) And Leslie! (who was a part of us in the beginning and who I missed when Kayne texted me recently to re-read my blog.) And Boon Sze who is such a giver in every way that I wish she will be given much back (who treated me to ‘The Manhattan Fish Market’, thank-u, thank-u, thank-u).
Far too many treats! Michelle too (Fuji Apple, breakfast beehoon, birthday brownie and a lot of other stuff just coz I like. Thank-u, thank-u, thank-u). Treats are really fun between friends. But above all, the treat of sincere and loyal friendships, good company and sound character. Not joking. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I don’t know about going back. Things seem good without me now, everyone having lunch together, which makes me happy. I am almost scared that the dynamics may change or people feel obliged to re-include me (which they shouldn’t) or I feel outcast if they didn’t. And I am afraid I will not do well at tasks. Though mostly, I just need to hear from God and these things shall be small peas and whines – which you all will have to bear with if I do go back. *wicked laughter*
Kayne offered to give my seat back (like it’s his decision). *Teasing* But I like him taking over my scenery and sitting at a right angle to my 2 closest ex-office buds (H & M), he’s really good there. And from what I’ve heard, everyone in Trng thinks so too. Nothing of my heart has changed but I don’t expect or need things to stay the same. Thank you though :). 2 stars for KK.
Why I might want to go back would be that I miss people and the whole set-up and want to spend just a bit more time with them, esp. since some of the old buddies have gone over and it has felt a little more complete. Yet at the same time, I can’t really imagine going back. o_O
But back or not, this is a tribute to friends who I wish I had written more about in my blog: To y’all with like (because love is a given and like is not). And you should believe me coz I’ve stayed up till 5:58am to write/edit this!
***11.07am – Thank God for caches so I didn’t have to re-write too much of what I lost in one of my earlier edits. Off to bed!