An exhausting 7 weeks and then a shift in the making. Keeps me on my toes.
I like change but every time it takes its toll. I guess the difference right now is that I’m not bored yet and have just gotten used to working relationships. What’s the same is that I’m still scared of things I have no idea I have skillsets for. And yet it has been a discovery of skills I never knew I had. Full of surprises :).
I wish I knew what is best. But I guess the stress/grief comes from having forgotten that my tomorrow is important to God and He is in the business of making it happen. Sometimes effectiveness has a way of tricking us into taking control of our own lives apart from God.
I think the Bible has a different effect when we know His heart of deepest love for us.. otherwise, the verses seem somewhat callous/dictatorial, which our Abba in Heaven is not..
Proverbs 16:1-3 (The Message) – Mortals make elaborate plans, but God has the last word. 2 Humans are satisfied with whatever looks good; God probes for what is good. 3 Put God in charge of your work, then what you’ve planned will take place.
Proverbs 16:10-13 (The Message) – A good leader motivates,
doesn’t mislead, doesn’t exploit. 11 God cares about honesty in the workplace; your business is his business. 12 Good leaders abhor wrongdoing of all kinds; sound leadership has a moral foundation. 13 Good leaders cultivate honest speech; they love advisors who tell them the truth.
He loves us, O how He loves us.. It’s not that our emotions aren’t important or deeply considered but we cannot make good decisions based on what we feel.
I guess maybe I am ready to move on. Or am I? Sigh. I love life.